I often looked at the clock

And time was never at standstill

Sometimes it was there to mock

Sometimes it was there to kill

But the numbers 9 11

They always stood out to me

I caught myself looking


Today they buried my grandpa

And I wondered if that’s why

If numbers were playing a trick on me

Or if it’s just life?

Today I want you to go and give your family a call, give them a hug, tell them you love them, tell them you miss them… Don’t fight, don’t argue, because at the end of the day it’s not worth it. You all have a purpose and a reason to be here, and it’s to create beauty and love and find that glow!


I love you all, and I want to say a great big THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart to all of you who have been sending prayers and loving kind thoughts my way. You mean so much to me. I have been crying on and off again today, over 9/11, over my grandfather, and not being able to be in Russia. But I have also been crying happy tears, that I have a loving husband, and a family here, who take care of me. And I know that the Universe is watching over me. I have been seeing signs everywhere, from a hand wave of a small child, to watching a ladybug make it’s way around my chair while listening to the wind chimes at the Sculpture Garden.





My dear readers, I’m at a funeral in Wisconsin today, and that’s why there is no regular BeingZhenya post! Knowing me though – there will be one tomorrow, I’ll write it tonight before I go to bed! There is just so much I need to tell you, but for right now – here is a mind blowing question – Why would someone need 9 razors in their shower?

I’ll talk to you all soon!

Death and All His Friends

My grandmother died today, after battling cancer for the past two years, Death came at 6.45 AM. It all went by really fast, the cops came, the funeral home agent came, the body was taken away when it was still warm, an hour and a half later. The funeral is this Tuesday at 1PM.



I wanted to make this post a tribute to all of us who’ve lost, love and hugs go out to all of you!

Don’t ever forget the ones you loved…

They are now angels…

And this one, especially for my grandma!

You can shed tears that she is gone,
or you can smile because she has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that she’ll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all she’s left.
Your heart can be empty because you can’t see her,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember her only that she is gone,
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what she’d want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.

David Harkins, British poet and painter

Never knock on Death’s door: ring the bell and run away! Death really hates that!


Ancient Egyptians believed that upon death
they would be asked two questions
and their answers would determine
whether they could continue their journey in the afterlife.
The first question was, “Did you bring joy?”
The second was, “Did you find joy?”
-Leo Buscaglia


Life is a great sunrise.
I do not see why death should not be an even greater one.
-Vladimir Nobokov


Love is stronger than death even though
it can’t stop death from happening,
but no matter how hard death tries it can’t separate people from love.
It can’t take away our memories either.
In the end, life is stronger than death.

There is no death! What seems so is transition;
this life of mortal breath
is but a suburb of the life elysian,
whose portal we call Death.
-Henry W. Longfellow