I often looked at the clock

And time was never at standstill

Sometimes it was there to mock

Sometimes it was there to kill

But the numbers 9 11

They always stood out to me

I caught myself looking


Today they buried my grandpa

And I wondered if that’s why

If numbers were playing a trick on me

Or if it’s just life?

Today I want you to go and give your family a call, give them a hug, tell them you love them, tell them you miss them… Don’t fight, don’t argue, because at the end of the day it’s not worth it. You all have a purpose and a reason to be here, and it’s to create beauty and love and find that glow!


I love you all, and I want to say a great big THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart to all of you who have been sending prayers and loving kind thoughts my way. You mean so much to me. I have been crying on and off again today, over 9/11, over my grandfather, and not being able to be in Russia. But I have also been crying happy tears, that I have a loving husband, and a family here, who take care of me. And I know that the Universe is watching over me. I have been seeing signs everywhere, from a hand wave of a small child, to watching a ladybug make it’s way around my chair while listening to the wind chimes at the Sculpture Garden.





  1. I am so sorry for your loss and sadness, but I’m thankful you have things to be grateful for. You can do this! You will be strong and pull through!

  2. So sorry for your loss, Zehnya. Beautiful post. HUGS.

  3. Hugs to you, Zhenya. I don’t know how you feel but, I, too, am about to lose my grandfather. They mean so much to a family and the weight of their loss is to heavy to fathom. Thank goodness for poetry to express the deep utterances of our souls. May you experience much grace through this grief.

  4. what a beautiful post, Женя. Thank you xoxo

  5. What a lovely post!

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